I was going to write a post about styling sofa pillows, choosing a classic backsplash, or how to decide on which kitchen counters are right for you.
But I’m not.
I’m just going to write what’s on my heart today. And for some reason, my heart is hurting. This morning, I stumbled upon a new account on instagram. After scrolling through her gorgeous feed, I soon had tears streaming down my cheeks.
You see, this girl had everything I wanted. The most perfectly built farmhouse you’ve ever seen. Gorgeous hardwood floors – in my favorite shade. Timeless 2 over 2 wood clad windows and double entry wooden doors – the exact doors I would choose. Perfectly designed kitchen flowing into a beautifully styled family room filled with natural light. Loads of white paint and shiplap.
Everything was just so incredibly perfect. And it made me sad.
It has always been my dream to build a farmhouse just like hers, but God told me NO.
So now my design lovin’ self sits here in this tiny nondescript ranch waiting, and hoping, and heart hurting.
and feeling sorry for myself.
and having God open my eyes.
while I might be envious of that gorgeous perfectly built farmhouse, someone else might be envious of ME.
Someone with cancer might be wishing they had enough energy to go to their kid’s soccer game. Someone with little money to pay for groceries might be watching me as I go zooming through the grocery store nonchalantly throwing items in my cart. Someone wishing desperately for a child of their own might watch my kids play on the playground with an ache in their heart.
I think God is trying to tell me something.
We all have our own burdens to bear. Our hearts can hurt for different reasons, but He knows this and He hears our prayers as we cry out to Him. But He also wants us to be grateful. Grateful for things we sometimes take for granted.
So Lord, help me be grateful for this roof over my head. Even though it’s not perfect. Even though it’s not where I want to be. Help me to be aware of others’ burdens, to be your hands and feet.
Help me to give you glory, even when my heart hurts.